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i feel like i have finally started coming out of my creative slump.... it's like my brain shut down after the semester and went into maintenance mode and i'm finally booting up again... it's weird because academically, this semester wasn't hard, but it was so mentally draining. a lot of my friends moved away which meant i was isolating myself and my classes were super early so my dumbass wasn't getting enough sleep and a couple of my classes were very writing/project heavy meaning i was spending a LOT of free time just getting work done and then being super stressed out bc i had to choose between sleep and relaxing with hobbies. well it's over now, and hopefully next semester will be better...

part of my creative slump was also due to the fact that i was falling out of love with destiny 2, i think. it was such a huge part of my life for such a long time, and my interest in it was coincidentally at its height when i was taking creative writing classes and getting more into writing. writing d2 femslash was my main creative outlet for a long time. but gradually i have just slowly stopped being interested in the game's writing (which i feel peaked in early 2022 and has been slowly going downhill ever since) which obviously killed my desire to write for it. but i watched the terror a couple weeks ago and it feels like the new hyperfixation is slowly setting in.... like DAMN what a good show. slowly dipping my toes into the fandom. my ao3 profile looks so funny rn bc it's like twenty three lesbian video game fanfics and then BOOM gay cannibals. well i'm having a good time!!!

work has been really good, i've been scheduled a lot and it's usually the 7:45 am shift but it's a really short shift and it's a SUPER easy job like i literally just go and sit and get paid to play totk for three hours%&*#%&@ speaking of totk it's really fun i love it i played it soooo freaking much that i'm kind of burned out on it now but i'm excited to get back to it. i just feel rejuvenated omg i want to do a lot of stuff, like read and finish ff7r and play totk and write etc etc etc... YAYYY!

I MIGHT FINALLY HAVE A JOB! last summer i didn't have an internship or job and i refused to go back to food service hell, meaning the summer was full of guilt-tripping from my mom. i basically became her maid as part of a bargain to get her off my back. she also made me promise that i would get some kind of summer work this year and honestly, i know she's just looking out for me. it's looking like i'm going to graduate sooner rather than later and i NEED to be making connections and networking, or at least padding my resume. if i ever want to get any kind of literature related job, my previous experience of working at a sit down fast food restaurant isn't going to cut it.

so today i went to a zine making workshop at my university's rare books library (which yes, was as awesome as it sounds-- will post pics of my zine soon!) and afterwards when i was leaving i literally just walked up to the front desk and asked if they were hiring or if they would have any positions open in the summer. and the girl behind the desk is like, "perfect timing, actually" and got her manager and i pretty much sat for an interview then and there. he basically told me to just email him my resume and my availability and the job is mine-- he even talked about letting me have small, one or two hour shifts during this semester. i might be getting a job where i'm paid to hang out at the rare books library sitting at a desk and doing my homework which is just the perfect job for me lol. im really happy!

didn't ask about the pay, which will probably be... not good, but probably not horrible either. dining hall/student center workers usually get around $12.50 starting wage i think, so the library pay might be around there? i was making $10 at my last job and min wage here is $7.25, so i would honestly be happy with that. either way, this is just such a huge weight off my shoulders. who knew it was so easy to get a job lol?

left my parent's house, back in my apartment! the drive wasn't too bad, but my gps took me a different way than usual which always makes me a bit anxious. everything was totally fine and the apartment looked good when i got back. my parent's house had a pipe burst because of the cold front, so i was worried that something had happened here.. but luckily nothing did!

school starts on monday and unfortunately i think i'm getting sick... i've been blowing my nose a lot :( but hopefully this semester is good. i'm excited for my classes! i'm taking an editing and publishing class and the professor is the head editor of a well known writer's magazine here so i'm suuuuper excited. especially because i gave up on doing this special program at my school that would have me get my master's degree while finishing my undergrad (because i figured out that it wouldn't actually be saving me money or time) and i think i'm gonna try to get into editing/publishing before deciding whether to go back to school for a masters.

hope everyone else has a great and healthy semester! and if you're not still in school (lucky)... have a great and healthy couple months anyways!

hey hey hey! i'm now using sadgrl's dreamwidth tutorial to run my blog. honestly it was just so much work to make each new page that i didn't feel like writing anything! hopefullt this will be easier. what to say, what to say... my christmas was good! i got a handheld cd player which is nice :3 i used to be super into kpop and kpop companies do a really good job of putting lots of random crap in albums to get you to buy them, so i had a bunch of cds lying around with no way to listen to them! i'm also trying to get more into having physical backups of digital media i own, so i'm planning to go to the local record store and see what i can find :3 it's fun! i randomly got the itch to learn how to knit and thanks to a friend and sheep and stitch's guides it was way easier to learn that i thought. i didn't get it at ALL at first and then it just clicked all of a sudden! so i'm trying to make a scarf. hope everyone else is having a nice and safe holiday season and a happy new year!!